after subuh

lately ive been checking out this blog written by a widow. her husband died of cancer last year. now she has 2 children to raise on her own. her stories made me "alaa, kesian nye.." all the way. shes so strong. i mean, ok even if shes not, she just has to be strong. but the fact that Allah wants to uji her that way, already proves that shes capable to surmount that amount of ujian. its been a year, and she still lives. but alhamdulillah la she is financially independent, i think la, because the kids go to Adni, got bibik somemore. and shes an engineer herself (and kinda good looking too huhu). despite all the devastations and heartbleeds, i think its pretty cool oh, u know, a successful single mom raising 2 children in a metropolitan city. hahaha bole buat tajuk buku.
but nauzubillah, i never want to wish this to anybody, especially me.

it made me ponder, which is more catastrophic yeh,
a. losing a husband
b. losing a future husband (maybe a boyfren ke..)

haha surely enough, the latter is nothing compared to the former. nada. nil. zilch.
with future husband, ur only building up dreams. while with ur real husband, ur building a life together.

but of course, i would be the last person on earth to talk about this. its just a one-way opinion suddenly coming out of my mind while sipping oats in a sunday morning.

today im glad i didnt sleep after subuh. haha.

yesterday i saw luqman+iqbal+ky on webcam. so rindu! ky is getting thinner! ciss nampaknye nobody can take my position as the *attest in the family. huuu and somemore alak si lidi is losing appetite wth! and the guys just never gain weight. why eh? tak aci sungguh!

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and while its still not too far from 21.6.08..

happy 23rd birthday husna!!
haha sile lah admit and redha to the fact that ur already 2 years ahead of being 21.

(pic stolen from her blog - guess which one is she? hint: shes wearing tudung) haha.