it's a 1-way street, so..

.. let me do all the ramblings la kan.

finally found a headline, at least for now. ngeh.

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its like winter in malaysia these days. its raining all the time. and its cold. like wearingthicklongsleeveshirtsandthickpantsathome cold. so when it comes to bathing, ohhh the idea sounds simply impossible, especially when curious hikmat did something to the heater in my (and alak's) bathroom recently and the result: no hot water at all. which also means: ice. cis him.
so everytime i made it to the bathroom and actually bathed ice, i feel pretty accomplished (walaupun mandi kambing). and god, its satisfying! it may take 20-30mins for me at first to wander around setting my mind that it's totally okay to get shivering knees in the bathroom (its thrilling you know) but now its more like, ah just bathe anyway. *applause sound effect* tahniah to me.

ok actually my point is, the hardest war to win is the one against ourselves. so when we keep winning these tough wars (-that our mind is subconsciously declaring each time the obstacles are approaching), we're getting stronger.

or in a layman's term: jihad melawan nafsu.
malas nak mandi, ah just mandi anyway.
malas nak pegi mukhayam, ah just pegi anyway. when was the last time you went to ulu yam and bond pun?
malas nak x, ah just x anyway.
malas nak y, ah just y anyway.
malas nak z, ah just z anyway.

so, yeah, don't we want to get stronger?
you never know what kind of good things you're getting - (if you're truly ikhlas, that is)

maybe, a letter (or email) of acceptance?
maybe, getting your buku catatan amalan with your right hand later in akhirat?
maybe, a lucrative job offer?
maybe, getting a husnul khatimah?
maybe, getting an all-that-you-need kinda spouse? (ahahai)

cey, buat amal sikit, tapi nak reward yang best2 aje.

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last night i was in tabung haji building kelana jaya, alhamdulillah makmah & pakcik arun were chosen to be one of the jemaah haji this year.
seeing all those ihram/telekung-clad people last night, i really can't wait for my turn!
i miss seeing kaabah. subhanallah. seriously its glowing even though its black.
masjid nabawi was so beautiful last time masyallah. and i'm pretty sure its even more beautiful now.
masjidilharam was soo majestically big (dan sangat super cantik jugak!) last time, and i miss entering to each one of it's many doors. there were babussalam, baburrahmah, ape ha lagi i cant remember.

so what i gotta do now is, since my mom had created a tabung haji account for each of us since we were small, i have to continue menabung dgn lebih dan lebih rajin to go for hajj in x* years to come. pray for me!

x* = no need to disclose kot.

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its friday and i took a day off today.
to, ehem, do some things, ehem.
so its weekend already for me.

have a great day, readers!

p.s. i started writing this entry late last night but fell asleep halfway. jadi sekarang saye sambung aje.